I heard a quote the other night on The Big Idea. “If your under 30 and not running a million dollar company your not trying.” Upon first hearing this, I was angry. “How dare someone judge me, tell me I am not trying. What do they know?”

Upon reflecting further, I realized she was right! I am not trying I wasn’t trying. I have a list of ideas 67 items long that have not been fully explored. I even started this website as a way to explore these ideas, but even so I haven’t really done anything yet.

Thinking about all of this I realized that even this website is more a way to distract myself, than a way to go out there and actually do something. I have been fretting over the information I want to post on this blog for the past few weeks. Constantly worrying whether or not I am releasing to much information or not enough.

“What if my boss finds out about this blog? What would happen if he knew about my intentions?”

I have wanted to market this site to garner some traffic, but have been in a panic about whether or not I should link to this from www.facebook.com, www.linkedin.com and the like, for fear of the consequences. It seems as though the more successful this website becomes, the more risk I am taking in it’s existence.

I realized that by censoring myself I wasn’t trying. I tried coming up with excuses like “I when I quit my job, I will post anything I want without worry, and really make this site what I want it to be.” But that completely defeats the purpose of this whole website, it is supposed to chronicle my journey from 9-5 to that of a self sufficient financial machine and I can’t very well document my experiences if I am worried about the consequences of doing so… To say that I was trying, was a lie.

This website becomes like the proverbial carrot dangling in front of a starving horse.  I want this website to be successful but I am unwilling to promote it until I quit work.  However I can’t quit work until I can create a successful business venture (website).

So in conclusion I have two options.

1. Do nothing, and continue on in a delerious state of hoping that things will eventually and magically work out in my favor, with little to no effort on my part.
2. Actively seek out opportunities to promote and market myself, this website and my brand, while giving every ounce of energy, heart and soul into making this venture successful.

I choose #2.